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Saturday, October 31, 2009

Halloweenie

It's Halloween - the day when people put on costumes and facades.

I don't need a facade. I need something real.

I want to understand and feel again, but for some reason, I've been devoid of these.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

The 7 deadly sins

I now know why Sloth is considered one of the 7 deadly sins. Totally unproductive days have zoomed past (unless you consider brushing up my mj skills as being productive) and I'm faced with a enormous pile of shit. I say shit cos I dread touching it. Time to get my hands dirty after all.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

i gotta feeling...

that tonight was a good night.

Caught up with some friends, both human and otherwise. Hah.

Good band, good company, good poison.

Only thing not so good? It all ended too soon. :)

Sunday, October 11, 2009

think like a human to think like a dog

You know you have a domesticated dog when she refuses to pee on her pee tray cos it's just too smelly.

Kino has been relieving herself on the floor of the kitchen for the past few week and I've been wrecking my brain trying to find out why. Scolding didn't work, removing the smell with disinfectants didn't work, and cleaning up her pee then putting it into the pee tray didn't work. Then it hit me - she's a clean freak; why would clean freaks refuse to do what they normally do?

So I pulled out the Dettol and gave the pee tray a good scrub down. No more smelly pee tray = an obedient dog = a happy owner!

Kino has definitely come a loooooong way from being a stray to who she is now.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

ironic

A traffic jam when youre already late

A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break

Its like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife

It's meeting the man of my dreams

And then meeting his beautiful wife

It's like rain on your wedding day

It's a free ride when youve already paid

It's the good advice that you just didnt take

Who would've thought, it figures

A song from the past - I love the lyrics for this song - so true.

Friday, October 09, 2009

funny world

It's funny how the universe works. One moment I'm complaining abt something and in the next, it just dissipates and I find myself being in a good mood again. All thanks to you guys - those who were there for me till the wee hours - really, thank you. I really appreciate it. :)

Finally, I can have a good rest.

Oh, ICG bball was fun - played rather good games though I was lazy but since females get 1 extra point for each ball scored, I guess we did contribute a lot too. :) ZJ - I think we can go for Academy Award nominations already - hah!

Thursday, October 08, 2009

life oh life

When you try your best, and you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

I finally realise why I love Coldplay songs. It's not just the symphonic melodies - it's the clever lyrics that speak so true of life.

Today is a black day - not just literally dark, but moody as well.

I had a panic attack yesterday. I wondered what if it's true - the end of the world really is in 2012? Where do we all go after we die? It's the kind of question that I hate contemplating, cos there's never an answer to it, and it scares the shit out of me to think of what happens after life, if there's anything at all.

Then it leads on to today's ponderings - what have I been doing with my life? What will I be doing with my life that makes it all worthwhile?

Now life just seems to be all about study then work. Yes, there are moments where we enjoy in the company of others, or in solitude even. But these are miniscule. Here's where I hit the rock wall again - what am I meant to do? What do I want out of life? They say we only live once - how should I live it the best?

It's days like these I feel like hibernating the entire day. Either drown in mindless drinking or snuggle in bed, refusing to face life as it is.

Is it just me, or are others as bothered by the same things? I never know, cos I guess I'm not one whom pple generally talk to about their problems, and neither do I have someone I talk to about my thoughts.

I'm in need of a sponge.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

straight to my (toilet) bowl

Watching MTV whilst trying to get some work done, but got totally distracted when I saw BSB's video for their latest song - Straight to my Heart. Seriously, they were really cool and all back in the days, but now, it's like watching a bunch of middle-aged guys still trying to act cool - infusing dance/hip hop moves with pop? WTH?!? And it's the worst lip syncing I have ever seen. Seriously. It was visible even in that flashy dancefloor lighting.

And as if to mock them, the next song was U2's superb I'll Go Crazy if I Don't Go Crazy Tonight. Here's a bunch of guys who know how to make songs and music videos. No real people - just animation. And one with a very good storyline at that. Check it out - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pmJgdXkAqMU&feature=fvst

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

day 3 and it's getting unbearable

Yesterday was spent in Bugis/Arab Street/Clarke Quay - hanging out with the dude

Hibiscus tea with edible flower in the drink - kinda tastes like a sweeter ribena

Thai papaya salad - missing the dried shrimps

My tom yum noodle soup

Saiful's pad thai

It's obvious that I'm missing a certain someone who might be feasting on these exact same dishes in a place that's 2 hours away by plane.

Shop selling old knick-knacks

The gang leader is always the one laughing the loudest.

New way to cam whore

2 books!

Bum boat turned speed boat

Chilling by the river

Someone's happy

Today was steamboat with Saiful at home - bought too much food as usual and ended up eating leftovers for dinner again. Tried picking up guitar again with the help of a great teacher - Mr Tin. But still a long way to go - still where I left it.

Been busier than ever with social engagements these past few days. Not because of what but for the sake of making myself busy so unnecessary thoughts don't enter my mind.

Watching the people in the bum boat, I kept thinking - if only I can be as carefree as them, going overseas on a holiday without worries of having to return to work at the end of the day, or at least for the duration which they're holidaying. I miss that feeling.

Time to hit the books - but I'm still not ready to do so.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

when a mouse is away, the other mice will still play

Yes, at freaking 5am - I've just returned home to a kitchen full of poop and pee, cleared it whilst refraining from puking and had a good shower to find that I'm still not in a clear-headed state of mind.

Tonight was the BOMB. A feast at home followed by an entertaining KTV session, and a rather funny lantern holding event - where we kinda stunned pple at Party World. Hoped on to terrorise a taxi driver before arriving at HooHa!

Yes, hoo ha man! That place ROCKS! The people there are soooooo friendly, the drinks are good and rather value for money and the food is good. Plus, there's a live band where you can head up on stage to sing with. Superb!

One bourbon coke, LIT, and a couple of gulps of wine from I-dunno-where later, here I am blogging at 5 in the morning.

It all started with an innocent dance with a lady who had too much to drink. Little did I know, I became the lady with a little too much to drink. With toasts of yum seng (in a pub no less - I guess I didn't get enuff yum seng frm the night before) and cheers from the kind lady, I was kinda floating by soon, which led to me doing something I NEVER thought I would ever do.

I actually went up on stage, willingly, to sing not 1, but 2 songs! And for record sake, it was Dancing Queen followed by 背叛.

So yes, whilst I am still not entirely sober, I am able to safely get home and blog too. What a night! Thanks so much Mr Tin, Mr Z and Ms W!

Saturday, October 03, 2009

wedding bells a' ringing

We're at that age where we start receiving what they call the 'red' bomb. But it's a great time to catch up with long-lost friends and a joy to share in that of others. Congrats Veron! Welcome to the club!

The last time I saw these 2 ladies I was the one in the gown.

Can't believe it's been a decade already. The days of sec sch seem like yesterday still.

The pretty bride with her trademark dimples.

The table of AISS peeps

Thursday, October 01, 2009

the recess break

The stay at Mirama Hotel was quite a refreshing break - Singaporeans living in a hotel in Singapore. Kinda like having a house close to town, which is not that bad an idea actually.

Headed to Great World, the land of few people, to shop around and watch the Inglorious Bastards. True to Tarantino's style, much gore and rather twisted storyline, a good one in fact. Then bought the best card game ever - Deal AKA Monopoly in cards. Super fun game that we couldn't stop playing when Mr Tin came over to hang out with us. Played the game till 4am - that's about 4 hours of non-stop play. It's more addictive than mj!

Headed to JB for the usual food and shopping. A&W, cheap shopping (belt for S$4 and knit dress for S$7 - beat that!), cheap and good massage, herbal egg, seafood and pretzels. Great day of R&R, definitely, though I came home feeling nauseous and ended up puking my dinner out. Bleh.

And as usual, here's a look at Kino:

Yawn, so tired... need to find a spot to sleep...

It's so uncomfy here... my head keeps drooping down...

Hmmm, what's this?

Seems like just about the right height...

Hmmm, it is rather comfy...

Non-slip too...

Yeah, time to snooze!

Ah, refreshed after that great nap!