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"stepping out on my own"
Thursday, October 08, 2009
life oh life

When you try your best, and you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

I finally realise why I love Coldplay songs. It's not just the symphonic melodies - it's the clever lyrics that speak so true of life.

Today is a black day - not just literally dark, but moody as well.

I had a panic attack yesterday. I wondered what if it's true - the end of the world really is in 2012? Where do we all go after we die? It's the kind of question that I hate contemplating, cos there's never an answer to it, and it scares the shit out of me to think of what happens after life, if there's anything at all.

Then it leads on to today's ponderings - what have I been doing with my life? What will I be doing with my life that makes it all worthwhile?

Now life just seems to be all about study then work. Yes, there are moments where we enjoy in the company of others, or in solitude even. But these are miniscule. Here's where I hit the rock wall again - what am I meant to do? What do I want out of life? They say we only live once - how should I live it the best?

It's days like these I feel like hibernating the entire day. Either drown in mindless drinking or snuggle in bed, refusing to face life as it is.

Is it just me, or are others as bothered by the same things? I never know, cos I guess I'm not one whom pple generally talk to about their problems, and neither do I have someone I talk to about my thoughts.

I'm in need of a sponge.