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Sunday, March 30, 2008

Precious Moments

These are the wedding, anniversary and couple collections - super duper sweet and soooo pretty! Did you know that all Precious Moments figurines are hand-made? Each has to be assembled piece by piece and hand painted individually. So much effort goes into making such a lovely thing - which prob explains why one costs so much.

This is the first piece that pulled at my heartstrings. I've always thought that my perfect proposal would involve the guy getting this piece and placing the ring on the ring box and giving it to me as a proposal. Such a sweet notion, no?

This is another piece that I particulary like - it's so similar to what Dan and I always do... just imagine that the tiny dog is a bigger wolf-gray husky and it'd be perfect!

Here's one that Danny got for me for this year's Vday... it's called 'I'll never let you down'. Another thing that Dan and I always do and the meaning it encompases is sooo sweet.

Here's some of the limited edition pieces that are suuuuper beautiful -

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Achy Achy

Was supposed to go climbing today (after a session yesterday following a looooong hiatus) and to Bugis for dinner with Saiful. However, the bug has caught me and I am resolved to this writhing bundle of pain, scrunched up on bed with barely enough energy to open my eyes, much less do any work. I'm in pain, and you're not here with me... can't wait for you to get back home tmr. No more sleeping with furry Vodka beside me, aggravating my flu with his fur entering my already blocked nostrils. I want you here to stroke me whilst I curl up in bed in agony, and to cook me yummy porridge for sickies. I miss you!

Slept the day away when I had so much planned, yet nothing was executed and I feel sad about it, especially about not meeting Saiful. Though we just met yesterday for a climb at CA, which left me with an aching body, with excruciating pangs in my arms and legs, and my butt! Was totally not helped by the hour-long walk I went with Vodka this morning. And I thought a little exercise to sweat it all out would make me feel better. Guess I thought wrong. And bro, thanks for the pretty Oakley cap! It was really handy during my walk this morning - not only did it shield the piercing sun from my eyes, it also served as a cover for my bed head!

Come home quick! Vodka and I miss you...

See how bored Vodka is without you?

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

The dark clouds and thunderstorms are back

Inability to enjoy life, the people around me and what I have is marring my life currently. I worry too much, emo too much, think stupid useless and meaningless things too much. I should really just do it, as Nike says. Good for the fact that I'm procrastinating about doing work again right now. And all I can concentrate on are things that aren't significant. Why do I brood on the smallest things when the big picture ain't that bad after all? I don't know, but jealousy is a pain in the arse, especially when I have no right to be and I should not expect too much from people whom I'm not all that close to. After all, they are in constant contact and have more activities in common, so they are closer to one another. Why should I expect the same treatment when I'm not of the same status? Why should I feel sad about how I perceive them to perceive me? As Dan says, I distance myself; it's my own fault in the first place. That's why others don't talk about me. I'm the odd piece of the puzzle, the one that doesn't fit. Why I torture myself by doing so? Maybe it's my personality. And this is what makes me miss the past even more, when such insignificant issues don't bug me, don't hinder my ability to live and have fun. I've changed, but not for the better. I wish I could go back to whom I was; stop the heart-wrentches and tears welling in my eyes.

Friday, March 21, 2008

bday

It was my birthday just an hour or so ago... had a busy one, what with an assignment due and a darn annoying test.

Thanks for the very interesting and rather professional sounding choir-ish birthday song guys. Totally didn't expect it - it was super sweet lah... I could totally imagine you guys dancing around with animated faces whilst singing.

Thanks for the muffins and song, as well as wishes... It's great to know that others have remembered your birthday...

Thanks Mommy and Daddy for the dinner and the gift. I love you guys!

Thanks Linda for the beautiful present - I love it!

Thanks bb for the wonderful present and the cake - I love you...

And thanks to all the birthday wishes... including those who did so even though we aren't even in the same country currently.

I was folding clothes when I had an epitome. How we used to think that baggy basketball shorts and jerseys were all we needed in our wardrobe. How we've all progressed and changed throughout the years. How we've become adults after going through all those fun times in school, total care for nothing in the world, but quality time with the pals and shopping our allowances dry. How we used to think that we can eat all we want and never get fat. How we used to be able to talk on the phone for hours end, till the sun rose. How we used to imagine our life after school and out at work. Are you there yet, where we imagined we'd be? I think relating back to one's childhood and past can reveal so much, and keep us on track to who we used to be, and what we visioned we'd be, cos some of us get lost whilst growing up, and it's instances like these that we get drawn back to when we were dreamers and could really enjoy life for all that it is. I need to do that now, I need to go back to when everything was so fun and innocent. I need to not grow up, not have all these negative thoughts corrupting me. I need a system reboot.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Pictures! Carousel on 15 Mar

Chilling in the lobby of the hotel

Aisyah sharing her 'halo' of light with Fizah

Sleepy after eaty...

Silence! I kill you!

Minister decrees that...

Frazzled Lizzie...

Aisyah and her mountain of ice - basically, ice-kachang kosong

my self-created ice-kachang

Liza giving us a glimpse of how she'll look like at 80, eating without teeth

Suck it up!

Aisyah's alter-ego

Click click bang bang

I hate scary movies!

PERIOD! Had to sit through one annoyingly scary movie that had me peeking through my fingers most of the time... with an irritating arse who sat behind me (who will get her just deserves for scaring me in the theatre). Anyways, I was so traumatised, I couldn't even concentrate on studying... I kept thinking back to the unmentionables and some disturbing scenes in the movie -aiks. I hate that movie! Ahhhh! And thanks a lot to that dryer scene... I'll never look at my dryer in the same way ever again.

Monday, March 17, 2008

The sun's out but nothing's changed

Feeling like a wallflower... the weather's been bright and sunny but somehow, my feelings remain with the gloomy rainy days. It's the same no matter what.

The Swami was right... I have someone who loves me immensely... but why am I so devoid of feelings - any feelings at all? I feel empty and I know not what fills me...

Sunday, March 09, 2008

New Lappie!

As they say, out with the old, in with the new! I'm now typing this blog entry, with a lot of typos at the mo as I strive to get used to this new keyboard, on my new laptop - a super-uber pretty Compaq Presario! Keep pressing arrow up instead of shift cos my old lappie - God rest its soul - had a longer one that I used to hit with my right ring finger. Anyways, must really shout out a great huge thanks to Jeremy for bearing the unearthly crowd at the IT Show and helping me purchase this steal whilst I stayed at home and communicated with him via live-feed through the trusty cell-phone connection. I would never have been able to get this deal by the time I travelled down to the location of super jam of today. I must say that my research late into the wee hours of the morning did work out well - although I am rather saddened by the fact that I just missed out on the deal I initially wanted, but no regrets cos this one with the more current processor is so damn fast! I've never experienced internet speeds at this rate! I didn't even know my internet connection was capable of such speed! Dammit! I think I've been wasting more than a day of waiting for pages to load with my old laptop as compared to the new one! Oh the best thing about getting this laptop? I can claim freaking $400 for it! It's a $400 discount that no other offer can beat! Woohoo! Kudos to LDS man!

Anyways, there are some qualms about getting a new laptop, such as the trouble of having to reinstall every thing from square one... plus I'm still trying to get used to the new Vista OS. I still miss XP, that's for sure.

New laptop, new watch... (a super nice Casio black with gold trimmings at $36! Plus it has an auto illuminator which lights up the screen in the dark when you hold it up to your face.) So proud of that find! Anyways, yes, coupled with a perhaps not that fantastic new haircut. So far I've gotten 2 nice, one bad and two neutral comments. Will receive more comments tonight I guess, when the bitches come and have our bball showdown.

Ok this is officially the first thing I've done with my new laptop, besides installing MS Office and some necessary boring stuff... yoohoo! Off to do work on the lappie... new lappie motivates me to do work!

PS: Good luck BB for your new job. Finally you found something that offers better and a chance to do something else. All the best to my extremely capable BB!

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

False Hopes for Mankind

Just when I thought there were still some kind souls left in this world - someone who would pick up a phone and be kind enough to call the person's next-of-kin to come and collect the phone. It's all a lie! A sham! Stupid Danny... gave me false hopes for mankind... hmph!

Appears that I left the phone at home and didn't lose it in the first place! And there he goes, making up some cock-and-bull story out of nothing again. And the worse part? I believed him! Darn!

Monday, March 03, 2008

Farewell Love

Baby has passed away today. She will be missed dearly - sadly, she's 11 days away from her 2nd birthday. I still remember how I was watching her lying in the corner of her tank, sleeping as I placed her food in just today. I was just wondering how she's growing to be such a big girl, how the strong and resilient mother of soooo many hammies who survived such a bad sprain would be 2 in another 11 days. She happens to share the same birthday as Vodka. I bought her on the day before Dan's brother got Vodka, and I still remember how small and furry she was, cuddling close to Hammy in the little tupperware that they were temporarily housed in. Just yesterday, she was playing with Vodka as she ran about in the little plastic ball as Vodka chased her around. And she was so obedient that she even ran towards me when I called out for her.

Here's the last photo taken of Baby yesterday. She was found in the exact position . I think she's getting on her age, and she has not been feeling too well since yesterday. I'm going to miss her sorely... I love you Baby and may you be rejoined with Hammy. Thanks for all the joy that you've provided us with.

Term break

Leap year was spent with my dear, who took leave just to accompany me on this special day. Love you loads dear! Spent it shopping in town (for free due to the vouchers from pals!) then watched The Leap Year, which is a super duper touching show. It's not bad for a local production, and it really does touch your heart. Bring the Kleenex and do not watch with people whom you do not want to see u crying. Serious. Now I know why we fit so well... cos we were meant to be one.

Woke up bright and early the next day for fishing in Johor...

Dan and his catches from Johor

We decided to swa tiew to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal where we saw a pack of dogs ruling the car park

Where Dan caught a grouper! Looks damn big rite?

In actuality, it was so small, that we decided to throw it back...

And as for today, played basketball at 12mn... first time in my life doing that, really... fun fun fun and no work done done done! I'm in deep shit...

I'm glad today, cos the freaking AT has finally moved out! My house is finally free of AT's stench! Yoohoo!


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Did you know that all Precious Moments figurines are hand-made? Each has to be assembled piece by piece and hand painted individually. So much effort goes into making such a lovely thing - which prob explains why one costs so much. This is the first piece that pulled at my heartstrings. I've always thought that my perfect proposal would involve the guy getting this piece and placing the ring on the ring box and giving it to me as a proposal. Such a sweet notion, no? This is another piece that I particulary like - it's so similar to what Dan and I always do... just imagine that the tiny dog is a bigger wolf-gray husky and it'd be perfect! Here's one that Danny got for me for this year's Vday... it's called 'I'll never let you down'. Another thing that Dan and I always do and the meaning it encompases is sooo sweet. Here's some of the limited edition pieces that are suuuuper beautiful - 4:04 PM · Saturday, March 29, 2008 Achy Achy Was supposed to go climbing today (after a session yesterday following a looooong hiatus) and to Bugis for dinner with Saiful. However, the bug has caught me and I am resolved to this writhing bundle of pain, scrunched up on bed with barely enough energy to open my eyes, much less do any work. I'm in pain, and you're not here with me... can't wait for you to get back home tmr. No more sleeping with furry Vodka beside me, aggravating my flu with his fur entering my already blocked nostrils. I want you here to stroke me whilst I curl up in bed in agony, and to cook me yummy porridge for sickies. I miss you! Slept the day away when I had so much planned, yet nothing was executed and I feel sad about it, especially about not meeting Saiful. Though we just met yesterday for a climb at CA, which left me with an aching body, with excruciating pangs in my arms and legs, and my butt! Was totally not helped by the hour-long walk I went with Vodka this morning. And I thought a little exercise to sweat it all out would make me feel better. Guess I thought wrong. And bro, thanks for the pretty Oakley cap! It was really handy during my walk this morning - not only did it shield the piercing sun from my eyes, it also served as a cover for my bed head! Come home quick! Vodka and I miss you... See how bored Vodka is without you? 6:22 PM · Tuesday, March 25, 2008 The dark clouds and thunderstorms are back Inability to enjoy life, the people around me and what I have is marring my life currently. I worry too much, emo too much, think stupid useless and meaningless things too much. I should really just do it, as Nike says. Good for the fact that I'm procrastinating about doing work again right now. And all I can concentrate on are things that aren't significant. Why do I brood on the smallest things when the big picture ain't that bad after all? I don't know, but jealousy is a pain in the arse, especially when I have no right to be and I should not expect too much from people whom I'm not all that close to. After all, they are in constant contact and have more activities in common, so they are closer to one another. Why should I expect the same treatment when I'm not of the same status? Why should I feel sad about how I perceive them to perceive me? As Dan says, I distance myself; it's my own fault in the first place. That's why others don't talk about me. I'm the odd piece of the puzzle, the one that doesn't fit. Why I torture myself by doing so? Maybe it's my personality. And this is what makes me miss the past even more, when such insignificant issues don't bug me, don't hinder my ability to live and have fun. I've changed, but not for the better. I wish I could go back to whom I was; stop the heart-wrentches and tears welling in my eyes. 8:23 PM · Friday, March 21, 2008 bday It was my birthday just an hour or so ago... had a busy one, what with an assignment due and a darn annoying test. Thanks for the very interesting and rather professional sounding choir-ish birthday song guys. Totally didn't expect it - it was super sweet lah... I could totally imagine you guys dancing around with animated faces whilst singing. Thanks for the muffins and song, as well as wishes... It's great to know that others have remembered your birthday... Thanks Mommy and Daddy for the dinner and the gift. I love you guys! Thanks Linda for the beautiful present - I love it! Thanks bb for the wonderful present and the cake - I love you... And thanks to all the birthday wishes... including those who did so even though we aren't even in the same country currently. I was folding clothes when I had an epitome. How we used to think that baggy basketball shorts and jerseys were all we needed in our wardrobe. How we've all progressed and changed throughout the years. How we've become adults after going through all those fun times in school, total care for nothing in the world, but quality time with the pals and shopping our allowances dry. How we used to think that we can eat all we want and never get fat. How we used to be able to talk on the phone for hours end, till the sun rose. How we used to imagine our life after school and out at work. Are you there yet, where we imagined we'd be? I think relating back to one's childhood and past can reveal so much, and keep us on track to who we used to be, and what we visioned we'd be, cos some of us get lost whilst growing up, and it's instances like these that we get drawn back to when we were dreamers and could really enjoy life for all that it is. I need to do that now, I need to go back to when everything was so fun and innocent. I need to not grow up, not have all these negative thoughts corrupting me. I need a system reboot. 12:44 AM · Wednesday, March 19, 2008 Pictures! Carousel on 15 Mar Chilling in the lobby of the hotel Aisyah sharing her 'halo' of light with Fizah Sleepy after eaty... Silence! I kill you! Minister decrees that... Frazzled Lizzie... Aisyah and her mountain of ice - basically, ice-kachang kosong my self-created ice-kachang Liza giving us a glimpse of how she'll look like at 80, eating without teeth Suck it up! Aisyah's alter-ego Click click bang bang 12:03 PM · I hate scary movies! PERIOD! Had to sit through one annoyingly scary movie that had me peeking through my fingers most of the time... with an irritating arse who sat behind me (who will get her just deserves for scaring me in the theatre). Anyways, I was so traumatised, I couldn't even concentrate on studying... I kept thinking back to the unmentionables and some disturbing scenes in the movie -aiks. I hate that movie! Ahhhh! And thanks a lot to that dryer scene... I'll never look at my dryer in the same way ever again. 11:58 AM · Monday, March 17, 2008 The sun's out but nothing's changed Feeling like a wallflower... the weather's been bright and sunny but somehow, my feelings remain with the gloomy rainy days. It's the same no matter what. The Swami was right... I have someone who loves me immensely... but why am I so devoid of feelings - any feelings at all? I feel empty and I know not what fills me... 9:54 PM · Sunday, March 09, 2008 New Lappie! As they say, out with the old, in with the new! I'm now typing this blog entry, with a lot of typos at the mo as I strive to get used to this new keyboard, on my new laptop - a super-uber pretty Compaq Presario! Keep pressing arrow up instead of shift cos my old lappie - God rest its soul - had a longer one that I used to hit with my right ring finger. Anyways, must really shout out a great huge thanks to Jeremy for bearing the unearthly crowd at the IT Show and helping me purchase this steal whilst I stayed at home and communicated with him via live-feed through the trusty cell-phone connection. I would never have been able to get this deal by the time I travelled down to the location of super jam of today. I must say that my research late into the wee hours of the morning did work out well - although I am rather saddened by the fact that I just missed out on the deal I initially wanted, but no regrets cos this one with the more current processor is so damn fast! I've never experienced internet speeds at this rate! I didn't even know my internet connection was capable of such speed! Dammit! I think I've been wasting more than a day of waiting for pages to load with my old laptop as compared to the new one! Oh the best thing about getting this laptop? I can claim freaking $400 for it! It's a $400 discount that no other offer can beat! Woohoo! Kudos to LDS man! Anyways, there are some qualms about getting a new laptop, such as the trouble of having to reinstall every thing from square one... plus I'm still trying to get used to the new Vista OS. I still miss XP, that's for sure. New laptop, new watch... (a super nice Casio black with gold trimmings at $36! Plus it has an auto illuminator which lights up the screen in the dark when you hold it up to your face.) So proud of that find! Anyways, yes, coupled with a perhaps not that fantastic new haircut. So far I've gotten 2 nice, one bad and two neutral comments. Will receive more comments tonight I guess, when the bitches come and have our bball showdown. Ok this is officially the first thing I've done with my new laptop, besides installing MS Office and some necessary boring stuff... yoohoo! Off to do work on the lappie... new lappie motivates me to do work! PS: Good luck BB for your new job. Finally you found something that offers better and a chance to do something else. All the best to my extremely capable BB! 6:50 PM · Tuesday, March 04, 2008 False Hopes for Mankind Just when I thought there were still some kind souls left in this world - someone who would pick up a phone and be kind enough to call the person's next-of-kin to come and collect the phone. It's all a lie! A sham! Stupid Danny... gave me false hopes for mankind... hmph! Appears that I left the phone at home and didn't lose it in the first place! And there he goes, making up some cock-and-bull story out of nothing again. And the worse part? I believed him! Darn! 11:49 PM · Monday, March 03, 2008 Farewell Love Baby has passed away today. She will be missed dearly - sadly, she's 11 days away from her 2nd birthday. I still remember how I was watching her lying in the corner of her tank, sleeping as I placed her food in just today. I was just wondering how she's growing to be such a big girl, how the strong and resilient mother of soooo many hammies who survived such a bad sprain would be 2 in another 11 days. She happens to share the same birthday as Vodka. I bought her on the day before Dan's brother got Vodka, and I still remember how small and furry she was, cuddling close to Hammy in the little tupperware that they were temporarily housed in. Just yesterday, she was playing with Vodka as she ran about in the little plastic ball as Vodka chased her around. And she was so obedient that she even ran towards me when I called out for her. Here's the last photo taken of Baby yesterday. She was found in the exact position . I think she's getting on her age, and she has not been feeling too well since yesterday. I'm going to miss her sorely... I love you Baby and may you be rejoined with Hammy. Thanks for all the joy that you've provided us with. 10:38 PM · Term break Leap year was spent with my dear, who took leave just to accompany me on this special day. Love you loads dear! Spent it shopping in town (for free due to the vouchers from pals!) then watched The Leap Year, which is a super duper touching show. It's not bad for a local production, and it really does touch your heart. Bring the Kleenex and do not watch with people whom you do not want to see u crying. Serious. Now I know why we fit so well... cos we were meant to be one. Woke up bright and early the next day for fishing in Johor... Dan and his catches from Johor We decided to swa tiew to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal where we saw a pack of dogs ruling the car park Where Dan caught a grouper! Looks damn big rite? In actuality, it was so small, that we decided to throw it back... And as for today, played basketball at 12mn... first time in my life doing that, really... fun fun fun and no work done done done! I'm in deep shit... I'm glad today, cos the freaking AT has finally moved out! My house is finally free of AT's stench! Yoohoo! 3:23 AM ·