reason why i gave up basketball

Finally remember why I gave up playing basketball competitively... someone I met and played with today reminded me of that actually...

Was playing with Derence, Wendy and Dan at Mountbatten today... was after shower so no one else was there besides us... so we were happily playing ABC till Roy came with some of his pals... and a female basketball player... quite a good player who's in a good team...

Anyways, we started playing a few games and I realised that my competitive strike reared its ugly head when I had to play against someone like her. And I found her to be very hostile, and rather cocky... which was one of the reasons why I stopped playing basketball in the first place... I couldn't stand playing in teams where there are people like that in the team... they think that they are such good players that they do not care to socialise with the players who are not as good, and as a result, all the good players hang out together and get together well whilst the others are left out of the team. In such an instance, the team barely becomes a team... since several are left out cos of their lack of ability.

Wasn't that good a memory really... and was not really friendly whenever I had to guard her and play against her. Defended her rather roughly, with a little push and shove here and there... but nothing ultimately low. And she played it back. I don't really mind her playing it back, but the way she puts herself across as a player... like she's so high and mighty... that's the crap that I can't tolerate. It may just be me and my opinion, and she may not really be as bad as I describe, cos even I don't know how I come across as a player in court - for all I know, I may be as bad, if not worse off than her. But somehow, just the feeling I get from playing against her really put me off and reminded me of why I left the game...

Plus, Dan's right... When someone's too confident and feel like he/she knows the game very well and thinks that he/she can play very well, they fail to see their weaknesses and areas where they can improve. I think I was at the point when I left the game. I felt like I was good enough for me... when in fact, I was really nothing more than dogshit at the game. A little crude putting it that way, but I think it best describes my feelings now. Perhaps it's a good thing that I gave the game up - why partake in something that causes grief and anger right? Well, I guess I'll have to open my eyes and brain for constructive criticism and try to improve myself, not only in the game, but I guess in all the things that I do, especially those that I think I'm really good at, when I'm probably not to begin with.

I guess sports really does open up one's view on the world as well...

Congrats to Xu Yong and his bride on their matrimonial binding today~~

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